Bless Your Heart

Daylight savings, adulting, and joy

Nov 21, 2024

This is more cathartic for me than anything, frankly I have just felt so called to pour my heart out.

This season when darkness overtakes our days, I feel it can be easier to fall into the darkness. But I find it important to focus on the light, though it is shorter it just means we have to make it sweeter. I touched on the importance of kindness and I think that goes further than being kind to just those around you, but also yourself. As someone destined to spread myself thin, I always take more time for myself during these cold dark months. I make sure to fall in love with life and myself again and again. On the days you feel gloomy, make that executive decision to say no and take a hot bath, watch your comfort movie, tuck in with your favorite book, sip on hot tea, and just let yourself breathe. It is not selfish to care for yourself.

As the time comes for me to pack up my suitcase and stuff Ozzy into his crate for our drive back home, I feel conflicted. I have been struggling to let myself enjoy my time at home because I have attached so many emotions that ultimately make me never want to go back. Most of my best friends have moved away, including my sisters. Although I live by people who make the place, and there are so many sweet souls back home. Including my beautiful and amazing mama. I often wonder (and maybe try to not admit) that I just feel like I am in a time warp of bitterness in the neighborhood we live in. Where I spent almost 8 years trapped in a house down the road experiencing the exact pain and blindness with truly no way out that Brianna Chickenfry went through. Most of you know that and this opens up to another tangent of what has been on my heart: people love to believe what they can see.

I think that is what adulthood is: a lack of magic and a conscience decision to be ignorant. Unfortunately, emotional abuse is tucked away because one can not see it and simply abuse itself is still taboo to discuss because people do not want to be uncomfortable. Bri has opened up such a safe space for this discussion, she is empowering women to come forward, to leave, and to see the light on the other side of the tunnel. My mom, sisters and I have been shining bright for almost 6 years now. We broke the chains, and sometimes we feel heavy. Luckily, most will never know the extent of what went on behind closed doors, but I do beg you to remember that one will never truly know what goes on behind anyone’s door. So be kind, love your enemies, give the dollar to the homeless man on the corner, smile at a stranger, take time for YOU, embrace the uncomfortable, and show up for those who need you.

*I know this was not the most uplifting piece I have shared, but trust me when I say if you are reading this I am thankful for you, I love you, you bring joy to my life, and I am praying for you! Happy Thanksgiving to all <3

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